This is so beautiful. How have I bloomed in 2023 so far? I chose to be happy. I had been in such a terrible mood/place since 2016 that, at the end of 2022, I knew I couldn't go on like that any longer. So, I decided to be happy. As gross as that may sound, that's what I did, and not in any toxically positive way, because barf. I am not ignoring the awful and the pain in the world, just redirecting myself back to happy instead of staying in the ick. To know that's possible, and that being in an endless rage spiral isn't required for being present, is a relief. (Not that there's not an occasional spiral.) Thank you for this. xo
“I no longer want healing to be something I do in survival mode. Instead, I want this journey to be a place of lightness, softness, and ease. That's the season I'm in now.” Much of the healing i am familiar with is uncomfortable, messy, and painful. I aspire my healing to be light, soft and ease one day. And to keep in mind the truth i want for my life and legacy. Thank you for this! 🙏
So far in 2023 I have bloomed in honoring myself & my boundaries by holding true to my “no” as a complete answer to make save for the “yes” my life desires.
It is always so hard for me to remember how far I have come when I am in the throes of my depression. I have been struggling a lot lately, so this article could not have come at a better time. Thank you
I'm not sure I can go into a deep self-reflective state at this point BUT I will say deciding to finally quit drinking and totally getting off SSRIs has really helped.
It's comforting to know that someone goes through the same trials and tribulations as I do. I could relate to everything you said. To answer the prompts...#1 I'm most grateful for my spiritual awakening. I'm not sure how others have experienced theirs but mine was quite difficult to navigate. I was on a bad path for a long time. One day about 2 years ago I woke up and felt like I was seeing life through someone else's eyes. Almost as if I was separated completely from my ego and was fully aware of the mess I had made of my life. Scared me so intensely that I felt I needed to change everything. And so started my journey. Since then I've stopped using drugs and alcohol. Been suffering from addiction my whole life and after that day I just stopped. Started daily meditation and reading self help books to learn more about myself. Developed good routines by working out often , prepping my meals and taking care of my over-all health. I was a people pleaser so I've learned to set boundaries and and take time to heal. Sometimes I wish the healing would be a little easier but I need to give myself credit for what I've done so far. I still have a hard time wrapping my head around what happened to me but I know I'm here for a reason.
Alex Elle, what a gift of a human being you are. I feel very grateful to have found my mirror in your writings and this community. A sprinkle of fairy dust here and there, angels marking the path. Today I choose happiness. I say thank you with the deepest love and appreciation and watch my garden grow. I chose joy!
How have I bloomed so far in 2023? Doing the hard work in therapy to work on my sense of self-worth and accepting that the only thing I am in control of, is how I am in this moment. I can not change my past and I can’t change others around me. So, I’m trying to appreciate the little things around me that are blooming.
“and the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
thank you for the reminder to bear witness to my own Becoming.
and for your Words <3
This is so beautiful. How have I bloomed in 2023 so far? I chose to be happy. I had been in such a terrible mood/place since 2016 that, at the end of 2022, I knew I couldn't go on like that any longer. So, I decided to be happy. As gross as that may sound, that's what I did, and not in any toxically positive way, because barf. I am not ignoring the awful and the pain in the world, just redirecting myself back to happy instead of staying in the ick. To know that's possible, and that being in an endless rage spiral isn't required for being present, is a relief. (Not that there's not an occasional spiral.) Thank you for this. xo
“I no longer want healing to be something I do in survival mode. Instead, I want this journey to be a place of lightness, softness, and ease. That's the season I'm in now.” Much of the healing i am familiar with is uncomfortable, messy, and painful. I aspire my healing to be light, soft and ease one day. And to keep in mind the truth i want for my life and legacy. Thank you for this! 🙏
So far in 2023 I have bloomed in honoring myself & my boundaries by holding true to my “no” as a complete answer to make save for the “yes” my life desires.
It is always so hard for me to remember how far I have come when I am in the throes of my depression. I have been struggling a lot lately, so this article could not have come at a better time. Thank you
I'm not sure I can go into a deep self-reflective state at this point BUT I will say deciding to finally quit drinking and totally getting off SSRIs has really helped.
It's comforting to know that someone goes through the same trials and tribulations as I do. I could relate to everything you said. To answer the prompts...#1 I'm most grateful for my spiritual awakening. I'm not sure how others have experienced theirs but mine was quite difficult to navigate. I was on a bad path for a long time. One day about 2 years ago I woke up and felt like I was seeing life through someone else's eyes. Almost as if I was separated completely from my ego and was fully aware of the mess I had made of my life. Scared me so intensely that I felt I needed to change everything. And so started my journey. Since then I've stopped using drugs and alcohol. Been suffering from addiction my whole life and after that day I just stopped. Started daily meditation and reading self help books to learn more about myself. Developed good routines by working out often , prepping my meals and taking care of my over-all health. I was a people pleaser so I've learned to set boundaries and and take time to heal. Sometimes I wish the healing would be a little easier but I need to give myself credit for what I've done so far. I still have a hard time wrapping my head around what happened to me but I know I'm here for a reason.
Alex Elle, what a gift of a human being you are. I feel very grateful to have found my mirror in your writings and this community. A sprinkle of fairy dust here and there, angels marking the path. Today I choose happiness. I say thank you with the deepest love and appreciation and watch my garden grow. I chose joy!
Alex, I loved the line, "I allow myself to be fully loved and seen." Thank you . D
I love this so much!
How have I bloomed so far in 2023? Doing the hard work in therapy to work on my sense of self-worth and accepting that the only thing I am in control of, is how I am in this moment. I can not change my past and I can’t change others around me. So, I’m trying to appreciate the little things around me that are blooming.